So Phetermine Day 1

I was totally freaking out..so I decided to take only half a pill ....sooo I did that like a half hour ago...so far...I haven't felt much...but it prly hasn't really got in my system yet i suspect...Regardless I prayed like crazy before I took it that it would just totally help me out! And I trust the Lord that he will protect me! He is stronger than any fear I have or any medication I could take :D

Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.

So i've been slacking  here lately...
but i'm happy to get back on board...

I first want to say my daughter has shown me what love is...in a different way than I ever expected...She has taught me more and more how God loves me.
That being said.

Eric Christopher Selner...I have put him through more than any one man should endure when they love a woman..He loves me and my daughter...and goes above and beyond to make us feel loved, wanted, special, important, and beautiful. He's my best friend, he's who i call when i'm having a horrible day, and when i'm pissy and need someone to bitch at...he takes it and then calms me down as much as possible haha. We're totally the opposite in so many ways, but God has really been showing me the positives in that. His heart is focused on Christ, and I love it. He's so steadfast and stable and such a constant in my life, never waivering his feelings for me, never changing his mind about me. Completely the opposite of me once again. Where I'm weak he's strong and where he's weak i'm strong (not that many places for me haha). We compliment each other...life isn't about all the CRAZY new feelings. It's about what you strive to build...and what you're afraid of letting go, but once you do, you love and see differently. I couldn't imagine a better man for my daughter and for any future children I would have...his face lights up when he sees Keelynn. Like she's his. For a long time that bothered me, like "oh, he's faking it because he loves me" but it's real and it's amazing. God has given me this wonderful man and I always push it away.. why? Fear of letting myself be vulnerable? Fear of letting someone in? Fear of having someone other than her biological father be her dad? Neglecting her? Giving my life over to another person? D all of the above...I'm scared of making the WRONG choice...but the truth is God would not have put him in my life...every single thing i prayed for, for no reason at all.

I honestly believe God has sometimes a very strange way of showing me things. Ways that hurt, but through the pain, I'm turned into something new and different. I need to stop seeing what the WORLD thinks of a relationship and what the WORLD thinks I should "feel" and start looking at what CHRIST did out of love and how his love wasn't always so beautiful in a worldly fashion...The cross was the picture of beauty and love...but the world doesn't look at that as beauty...no a wordly person says "why didn't he just get off the cross, why didn't he just come down, he was God right?" Exactly...Beauty....

Inspirational

Stuff

I made these the other day just for fun...Awesome accessory to a purse sweater or ....

in your hair! :)

So i Skipped day 3

Day 4.  Style 31.  Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.

This is the shirt I got in scotland the second time i went over...and it was technically a dress haha but over time its become a really adorable shirt and it still fits and is SO SO easy to throw on and feel comfortable..I love bandanas So adding that to any outfit is always a plus! :)

I wish I had an infinite amount of money to buy clothes and accessories!!

Day 2

Day 2.  What makes you uniquely you?

 My uncanny ability to have a conversation and get along with basically anyone. I love to meet new people. My whole thought process is, I know how much of a story I have...and every person in the world has their own story. It's SOOO interesting! The more people I know the more it excites me:)


I guess my ability to wear red lipstick is somewhat unique lol, a lot of women say they can't pull it off but I LOVE IT!


Tattoos are whatever it's not really unique anymore because lot's of people have them, but no one has MY tattoos so I dig that a lot. 


I love weird situations...like going to Scotland completely alone...finding out I can do the things I'm most scared of. Like fly alone. I love it!


and well I guess I don't have much for this one! :)

SO here it is!

Day 1.  What does beauty mean to you?

First of all let me say that this first question is very very easy/hard for me. Let me first and foremost say what I find beauty in...because it is easy for me to find beauty in people/things around me. So pictures do say a thousand words so that's what I shall use!

First and foremost, being saved, by grace...DAILY...and the wonderful saviour that holds my heart and uses the holy spirit to convict me. Being saved over and over again every day is just BEAUTIFUL. Simply amazing and nothing could be more beautiful than that to me. But not only am I a sinner and saved. I am BLESSED beyond all reason, without deserving a bit of it. And though I am the first person to complain about what I don't have..sitting here writing this and realizing what is BEAUTIFUL in my life has brought me to tears.

So here it goes: Keelynn (my beautiful daughter) and I

She's the most challenging beautifully rewarding thing I've ever laid eyes on. This happens to be an older picture but looking at it and her cute little lips and chubby cheeks and bald head are just heartbreaking and at the same time mindblowing..SHES A LITTLE ME!

There are some more recent ones of her. GORGEOUS!!!! Keelybug...she's the best thing in the world! :)


So for sake of space...I'll just write out the rest of the things I find beauty in (well some I think I could write all day)
Scotland, Celtic, Antiques, Hair, Makeup, Love, Music, Tattoos, Friendship, Poetry, Uniqueness, Castles, Pictures, Flight, Balloons, Coffee&Tea, Culinary Arts, FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY, Laughter, Elderly couple holding hands, Outgoing-ness, Dancing, My parents loving each other and staying together, Trees, Fall.


And finally the worst part for me...Finding beauty in myself..Now no doubt I upload a bazillion pictures of myself..but honestly...I just love taking pictures...and it's fun! Beauty in ME is hard...especially physically. After a baby let's just say I'm the farthest thing from perfect, it's hard to feel beautiful when you can't even fit in a dang tshirt without worrying about your tummy not being flat! SIGH! but at the end of the day..Who really cares, those who love me don't care about that stuff its just me! I'm so selfish, I obsess over it because I feel like society has totally skewed the REALITY of what beauty is..A rack of bones, and some designer dresses, really??? YUCK..it makes no sense but its so toxic the way we're "supposed to look" So the beautifying I need to worry about is Inward...I long to be beautiful to Christ, I need to set down all the worry and stress from not looking the way I think I need to and focus on Christ, after all he did make me beautiful.


1 Peter 3:3-4
“Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty that depends on fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.” (NLT)

What a way to start a blog !

What is "Project 31"?  It is a collection of thoughts, ideas, and women who potray beauty in a inspired way.  "Project 31" is you celebrating your God given beauty, and celebrating the beautiful women around you. The meaning behind the project is taken from this:


Proverbs 31


    ¹⁰ Who can find a virtuous wife? 
      For her worth is far above rubies. 
       ¹¹ The heart of her husband safely trusts her; 
      So he will have no lack of gain. 
       ¹² She does him good and not evil 
      All the days of her life. 
       ¹³ She seeks wool and flax, 
      And willingly works with her hands. 
       ¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships, 
      She brings her food from afar. 
       ¹⁵ She also rises while it is yet night, 
      And provides food for her household, 
      And a portion for her maidservants. 
       ¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it; 
      From her profits she plants a vineyard. 
       ¹⁷ She girds herself with strength, 
      And strengthens her arms. 
       ¹⁸ She perceives that her merchandise is good, 
      And her lamp does not go out by night. 
       ¹⁹ She stretches out her hands to the distaff, 
      And her hand holds the spindle. 
       ²⁰ She extends her hand to the poor, 
      Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy. 
       ²¹ She is not afraid of snow for her household, 
      For all her household is clothed with scarlet. 
       ²² She makes tapestry for herself; 
      Her clothing is fine linen and purple. 
       ²³ Her husband is known in the gates, 
      When he sits among the elders of the land. 
       ²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them,
      And supplies sashes for the merchants. 
       ²⁵ Strength and honor are her clothing; 
      She shall rejoice in time to come. 
       ²⁶ She opens her mouth with wisdom, 
      And on her tongue is the law of kindness. 
       ²⁷ She watches over the ways of her household, 
      And does not eat the bread of idleness. 
       ²⁸ Her children rise up and call her blessed; 
      Her husband also, and he praises her: 
       ²⁹ “ Many daughters have done well, 
      But you excel them all.” 
       ³⁰ Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, 
      But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised. 
       ³¹ Give her of the fruit of her hands, 
      And let her own works praise her in the gates.


Pretty good stuff, huh?  Wanna join in?  Here is the challenge...  For 31 days, blog each day about things that celebrate your God given beauty, and the beauty of the women around you.  I attatched a list below you can follow, or you can make up your own (please link back here, though).  


THE LIST:


Day 1.  What does beauty mean to you?
Day 2.  What makes you uniquely you?
Day 3.  Who is someone you know who inspires beauty?
Day 4.  Style 31.  Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5.  Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6.  Jaded beauty.  Has the world's definition of beauty ever jaded you?
Day 7.  Write a blog to encourage another beautiful woman.
Day 8.  Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)?  Share, please!
Day 9.  What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10.  What is Jesus teaching you as a wife, mom, or friend? (Or just woman in general?)
Day 11.  Post a recipe.  Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12.  Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13.  Write about something you would like to change about yourself for the better.
Day 14.  Style 31.  Post an outfit pic!
Day 15.  Write to encourage a friend.  Inspire her beauty.
Day 16.  Write a letter to your daughter, or a young girl in your life.  Tell her what beauty means.
Day 17.  Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18.  Describe your personality.
Day 19.  Write about your favorite comfort food (we are women- we ALL have comfort food!)
Day 20.  Write about your job and why you love it or hate it.  
Day 21.  Write a letter to your husband to encourage him (or if you are single- your future husband.)
Day 22.  What are some needs that need to be met in your community?  Blog about how to extend your hand to those who need you.
Day 23.  What are your strengths?  What are your weaknesses?
Day 24.  What is Jesus teaching you presently?
Day 25.  Style 31.  Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26.  What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27.  Write a blog to encourage someone and build their confidence!
Day 28.  Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29.  Write about "a day in the life of me."  (Pics are great!)
Day 30.  Who is your role model as a woman?
Day 31.  Write about your dreams and goals as a beautiful woman!


Ready?  Grab the button and link up below!  Let's encourage each other in this project by visiting each other blogs and leaving encouraging comments.  Any questions or comments e-mail me at SheBreathesDeeply@gmail.com .